Dark Bird
Black raven with black wings, Black eyes as dark as midnight, Wind flutters his wings, Shadows turn his head, And movement catches his stare.He looks down upon you and watches in dismay, No black is with in you, No night in your eyes, No wings to up lift you, No shadow to attract you, And movements pass your gaze.A raven, A raven, A moonlight silhouette.
Today in church I started crying! I cried in church!! Now its official I have some serious issues and I don't know what they are or why I was upset. I really should get it checked out.
I guess I was just thinking about EVERYTHING that is wrong with me or my life. I was thinking how I hate my ugly crooked teeth, how I really should work on being more social and less mean. I mean not everything about me is bad, I love my blonde hair and my skinny waist, I also love that I am well rounded when it comes to music- it really is a good trait because then I have something in common with Everyone! I really do like every type of music no exaggeration. I will listen to Tim McGraw or Taylor Swift then Panic at the Disco and Slipknot or Three Days Grace and I love One Direction and even Justin Bieber, I will listen to Canned Heat and David Bowie, there is nothing I haven't liked when it comes to music- I even enjoy symphonies!
Anyway I really should try to focus on the good and not the bad! Its hard sometimes though!!
Today was my birthday party and although I really enjoyed it, I was bummed because a certain someone didn't come. I had tons of friends there and we were all laughing and having a great time but I just still felt sad, hurt and almost angry because this is the third time he has cancelled on me. I really shouldn't even like him - he's crazy. Like messed up crazy. Ah hell! That's probably why I like him to begin with... anyway at my party I was surrounded by guys because that's all I hangout with and most of them like or have liked me but they just aren't enough because they aren't him... ugh.
I am just a simple girl trying to make it in this world. I just recently turned 17 and have been inspired to write therefore that is what I'm going to do. My goal is to write everyday at least once even if it is something small like a cooking tip. I don't care about the views I get because this is just for my own good.
First off all I would like to say that I am very busy however I love to write and it is good for me. I will be able to just get stuff off my chest without it being so public everyone can read it on Facebook or Twitter because no one but me knows I have this.
I love a lot of different things including boys, my education, music, art, photography and kissing which really is an art... I am active and go hiking as well as fishing and camping a lot during the summer. I am going to school full time at college in the fall and I am going in for Business. My major goal is to major in that and minor in Culinary. I want to open a small restaurant or two in Medford Oregon - that is my ten year goal!
