My brother Jamie

My brother and I used to be best friends. Honest! We did everything together and had  blast!
My brother James honestly was the coolest person. Now don't get me wrong he still is awesome but I just never see him anymore. Jamie lives in Washington currently, which is only like 6 hours away from here but soon he is moving to Las Vegas and I will not be able to see him at all before or after he moves.
My brother and I are only a year (and 18 days) apart. We are like twins! We're both in the same grade and we used to wear matching clothes in school and tell everyone we were twins. We look just like it too!
Growing up my brother hated homework and school... well he still does. Anyway I used to do his homework when we were younger. Mostly math and reading and then he got really good at math and would do my homework. Like I said we were best friends.
My brother used to do so much for me! He would tie my shoes and of course he did it in double knots so he wouldn't have to do it again for awhile. My brother tied my shoes till I was in like 7th grade... its really quite sad honestly. I knew how to tie my shoes its just I never did because he was always there for me. Now that he isn't here I only have two out of twenty-one pairs of shoes that have laces and they are double tied so I never untie or retie them. When I do have to tie my shoes though, it takes FOREVER! I haven't had the practice.... and to think I'm going to college in the fall...
Another thing that I have recently noticed I don't know how to do which is sooo stupid but I have never pealed an orange! I had my six year old cousin show me how to! Haha!! I would know how to if someone just started it for me but I have to admit even when my cousin started it I was doing it the long way! Its quite a funny thing to think.
I miss my brother so much and I never knew how much I depended on him! He was there for me... for EVERYTHING!! Although I treated him like he was younger than me, he was always my big brother and he helped me a lot.

Thank you Jamie! I love you!

P.S. Only I am allowed to call him "Jamie" his real name is James and he hates when people call him "Jamie".

Pear Picking

The Mormon's in this area have this awesome program where they have a whole pair farm and everyone in the area has to come and pick them, then the fruit they send out to families who don't have money. I have never known about this due to the fact that we just didn't do anything like this in Nevada. I had no idea what to expect but our ward was told to volunteer and help on certain dates and my dad and I agreed to do it.
So we drive up to the pair farm and there is huge signs saying "LDS WORK PROJECT" with arrows I believe. We pull in and they separate the guys and girls. My dad works on the lower part and I walk up to start working. I had no idea if anyone was going or what the plan was but I was pleased to see a few girls from my ward there! They all greeted me and then we signed in and put our bucket things on.
We picked from 6 to about 8:30. It was actually a lot of fun, I got to tell all the girls about my date because they had all heard about it but hey I was happy to share! :D

Cutting Hair

So I have this strange addiction... now only a few people actually know about this but I love to cut my hair! I have been doing it for about eleven years to be honest! When I was about six years old I would cut my dolls' hair, my hair and my brothers' hair! I don't know why or what it is but I love it! About a year ago however I cut my hair and I cut a lot off. I decided that I wasn't going to cut it anymore and let it grow out. I loved my hair when I did cut it, it was SUPER layered and light and cute and fun! However again I wanted long hair. I just am Not patient.
The other day my friend was saying how she needs a haircut and so I told her I would do it for her. I have cut my hair (which she loves my hair style) and I have cut my dad's, mom's, and one of my friends hair. Of course I did their hair when I was older and better trained they were all happy with their hair so she said she would let me cut it.
The night before she came over I was looking in the mirror after cleaning my room and decided I reeeeally needed my bangs trimmed. So I grabbed the scissors next to me and cut them just enough. Then I went on to trim up around my face becuase it needed framed again considering the layers were growing out. I didn't stop there. I had somehow just cut a ton of it off! I change my whole hair style and made it even more layered and it is really short in the front and long in the back. I love it but I wish it was long!!!!  I don't regret it because I do look awesome its just when I curled my hair today it was almost to short to look good! Urrrg. Oh well, maybe one day I will learn.
Anyway my friend that came over wanted her hair cut short and layered. I did exactly what she wanted and she loved it! Her hair is so thick so it took forever to cut it! I posted a picture of her on Facebook and tagged her in it and I swear everyone who knew her commented; they all said they love it and that it looks great! I was very proud.
My aunt's husband owns a salon that is super high up and she was saying that I really do have a talent for this and she said that I can do better than people who are trained. I am always nervous, especially with bangs but several people said that Cutting hair is my calling.

P.S. My other weird obsession is blondes!! The guy I am dating currently has perfect white blonde hair and I LOVE running my fingers through it!!!! It drives me crazy!! {{@#$&*$!^*&#}}      <3

Today's Society

Today's Society: If you aren't thin you're fat, if you're skinny you're anorexic. If you're quiet you're hiding something, if you're loud you're rude and opinionated. If you follow the celebrity drama you have no life, if you don't follow it you're lame. If you get good grades you're a teacher's pet, if you don't then you're screwed for life. If you kiss on the first date you're a whore, if you don't you're prude. There is no way to win, so just be yourself and don't listen to what anyone says.

My date.............

So the guy whose number I didn't save the other night, I found him on Facebook. He messaged me right after accepting and said "you never text me :(" so I told him what happened and then gave him my number. We talked all day and were talking about movies we both wanted to see- Percy Jackson Monsters of the Sea and then he just asked me to go and see it with him.
He came and picked me up and on our way to the theater we got soo lost due to the fact that I don't drive so I don't know where anything is and he doesn't even live in town. It was an adventure. We finally get there and there was like no one there! Literally there was only six people other than us there. It was nice.
The movie was really good I enjoyed it, although for most of the movie I was more concentrated on Kyle and him not holding my hand. When he finally did hold my hand... it was in such an awkward position for both of us, although now this is super cliche but our hands fit perfectly together. Its the small things! <3
After the awkwardness and when the movie was over he leaned in and it was like habit, it was natural to just kiss him. We kissed twice in the theater.
Afterward we held hands to the car and when we arrived at my house again he leaned in and this time it lead to more kisses. Then quickly make out. Nothing more than that, he was almost a little pushy but I told him exactly whats what and that I wasn't doing anything. However I didn't stop kissing him either. We were probably out in his car for a while and then I left and walked inside. He was nice enough to wait till I got inside to leave. This guy- Kyle really was a gentleman and he is Mormon just like I am.
So I go inside, change into bed clothes and then get some food because I am always hungry especially after being turned on (that's probably an over share but it's the truth). Then quickly I got on facebook because I noticed I had tons of notifications. After awhile Kyle messaged me... I had left my phone in his car!! I am glad he found it, and that I was online! So although he lives about 45 minutes away he turned around and is now currently on his way here to bring me my phone!!

The date was wonderful ultimately and I REEEALLY like him. He's super cute too! Oh aaaand he does Football!! <3

Freaking out!!!!

Today was just an average day. I went to the lake with the family and fished a little. I was also able to meet my aunts new boyfriend and then I went to a church dance when I got home.
It was a casual dance, I was wearing light blue skinny jeans, a white graphic tee with "London" written on it and my light light jean jacket and my hair was up in a messy bun and my bangs were done straight across and I had on faded red lipstick.
I was excited for this dance however I didn't have my hopes up for it being that good, considering the last couple were not that great.
So I get there and see my friends from my ward- a great start! I was in the group and dancing and singing my heart out! I had so much fun! Then the first slow dance comes on and this REALLY cute blonde guy with dark eyebrows and gorgeous eyes walks up and asks me to dance. We hit it off wonderfully! We talked the whole slow dance and the next couple fast songs then we danced during another slow song! It was great, we joked around and were having fun. I even had one of my friends say that it seemed like he was into me!!!! So we hangout and dance for most of the rest of the time but a couple slow songs he asked other people- probably so he didn't seem weird, although we did dance for three slow songs and a bunch of regular songs. Anyway it seemed all the girls he danced with were interested in him. There was just something about him that couldn't be explained. He wasn't the "cool" kid who stands out but the way he smiled and talked to you just made you feel so special. He had an amazing laugh that made me feel like it was just the two of us there. I felt SOO comfortable around him which I usually am never comfortable here at church events.
We joked about everything and he made me laugh so much. He kept calling me lame though because all I do in the summer is school and work and I'm going to college but I don't have my license! It was all fun though and he made me feel like I was... me. Is that crazy?
This guy I just met made me feel just as I have been needing to feel for awhile.... I really did like him.
At the end of the dance event I gave everyone hugs and said my goodbyes and see-you-laters. I ran into this guy- Kyle on my way out and he turned to me and said bye and then he asked for my number but then quickly changed it to giving me his number. I wrote it down in my phone and was about to message him as I was walking out but decided to wait because I didn't want to seem desperate or whatever........ I walked away and then went to go save it when I found out I didn't save his number!!! I was sooooo mad! I was already on my way home and there was nothing I could do! When I got home, literally I was on the floor flopping around, saying how dumb I am!
I am so mad at myself! I really like him.

FML.

-_-

Things going on

First of all I would like to say I am obsessed with the song 500 miles by The Proclaimers.

Secondly... this one I am ashamed of, but.... although I have a 99% in my first class for summer school and a 100% in my second, I am soo far behind!! I only have five more days of school and I have to do six whole chapters!!!!! I am going to be working so hard this week!

Lastly tonight I went to my friends house to watch Percy Jackson due to the fact that the second movie is coming out soon and there was a bunch of people there. It was a lot of fun, I really enjoyed it! There was this one guy though that was starring at me almost the whole time! He is like 15 and my younger cousin has a HUGE crush on him. His mom was kind enough to drive me home and the whole way Zach kept talking to me... it was really funny though and flattering.

A long, crazy, fun, stressful day trip

Yesterday I went on a day trip with the young women in my ward and the leaders. I have lived here for six months and this was the first major thing that I did with the group. I get along with most of them however this group of girls is soo uncontrollably, and obnoxiously loud; they don't have volume control. I am usually a pretty quiet an mellow person so being in the car with five other teenage girls, and two leaders that are just as loud can be overwhelming! The car ride to the water park we went to was about 2 and half hours there and 2 and half hours back. There was 16 teenage girls total and four leaders and one teenage boy.
The ride up there was uncomfortable for me... I had no idea what to say to anyone. I really haven't hung out with them that much so I didn't have inside jokes or memories to talk about like everyone else did. The car was never silent, the two girls sitting next to me were SOO loud and laughed at EVERYTHING!!! I don't know if they force themselves to laugh at all the stupid stuff they say or they really are high on life. I would try and laugh at what they said and I would add comments to things or I would try and make conversation about cute actors that everyone loves- nothing worked.
Then after that awkward-for-me ride up we were finally there! We had to be in groups, obviously, and I was paired with the two girls I sat next to on the way up. They are honestly hilarious girls and they have fun with everything it is just so hard for me to be me around them. Now there were tons of fun rides there and it was awesome to be out of the house and able to do something! I had fun- don't get me wrong, its just that I felt so left out almost the whole time!!! I tried everything.
After awhile we had lunch and I sat alone in the car and was yet again left alone even when I tried to sit next to the girls they left. I am like the ugly duckling in this story, but there is a happy ending. So after lunch I went on a couple more rides with the girls I was paired with and then I decided to get out of the water and put on some sunscreen. It took them about fifteen minutes to even realize that I had left. They got out of the pool and went on some rides, when they got off they realized I wasn't there... even the leader that was with them payed NO attention to me. It was hard. So after that when they came back one girl asked why I didn't go with them and then dragged me to a ride. I went on with them and then I decided I had enough. I went on a few rides alone.
Finally this girl that was in the other car noticed I was alone and had me hang out with them. This group of girls is so sweet and so it was much easier for me to get along. Rylie and I talked when we were in line and I made jokes and was starting to actually have a good time. I was with them from the rest of time because I was actually in their group.
Now after we were done there we went to In-N-Out Burger and got dinner. I felt a little better because the girls who had left me out the whole time had saved me a seat. We ate dinner and headed home on our long journey again- this I was dreading.
The way back for most of the time it went awesome! I was telling jokes and had more comments for everything and I shared all my music. Everyone- including the leaders really liked some of my music off of my phone. It really helped a lot.
All in all I had a lot of fun although right now I am in a lot of pain because I got sun burned so terribly bad, it was worth it and I know now that I am going to be able to be a little more comfortable with the group of girls. However after being with them for FOURTEEN HOURS I was exhausted and had more than enough!

MY STYLE!!

Today my grandma went through all of her clothes and she was getting rid of a lot of them therefore I went through the bag and took some of her shirts. They were all too big for me and not my style but I up-cycled them and now I have some super cute clothes that I made!!

So this first one is an old long sleeve turtle neck that I turned into an over shirt vest thing and with the sleeves I made leg warmers!!! I love this outfit although it really is't something that I would normally wear it is so cute!

 

The next thing that I made was another vest but this one has a different design, it has the bows in the back and with the left over material I made a matching bow for my hair! This is super cute and I'm sure I will be rocking it a lot all year long!! It is a navy blue so it goes with everything I have pretty much! 

Now this next one was just an experiment and I don't know if I like how it turned out but it is a graphic tee that was super large but I liked what it said: "I'd rather be in my garage"

Oregon's Red Sun